First and the last moment with Dalillah ...

Yesterday as I was driving to Hospital Kuala Lumpur to visit my friend Dalilah who was in critical condition due to her breast and liver cancer I kept on praying that I would have my golden opportunity to meet up with Dalilah since I had missed 3 chances before . I was in high spirit driving early in the morning all the way from Kemaman to KL and I had talked to my Darling asking permission to visit Dalilah and he knew how I had thought a lot about Dalilah and Darling last said " I tau kalau I tak bagi pun you mesti nak pegi jugak .. " So , four of us including Safiyyah , Sumayyah and my friend Falizah left Kemaman at 7.30am .and stopped to have our breakfast at Gambang R & R and at 9.59am I received a text message from "Dalilah " but at that time I was driving and it was almost at Karak toll that I read the message ..

" Bagi pihak keluarga Dalillah Tamrin saya ingin memaklumkan arwah baru sahaja meninggal harap dapat maklumkan kepada yang lain dan maafkan segala kesalahannya .. "

I was shivering while reading that sms and after paying the toll I said to myself " I have to stop for a while . "..... I stopped my car by the roadside and read the sms again and again and just couldn't believe what I was reading ... I was almost there to meet up with her but she's then no longer alive ... as I continued driving my tears rolled down my cheeks and I couldn't stop crying .... so many questions arose from my heart ... let me alone know what those questions were as it's between me and the Al Mighty Allah .. Oh Allah , please forgive me ., only YOU knew how I felt at that sad moment ...

We then together with Falizah's friend ( she's from KL ) headed towards Dalilah's Mom's house in Labohan Dagang , Banting .Aas we reached her mom's house I could feel the sadness all around .. Not long after that jenazah Dalilah arrived from the hospital . She was placed on the bed and I had my first and last chance to meet up with her and I kissed her cheeks and I whispered to her who was lying still , not a single move anymore ...

" Akak sayang Dalilah , semoga syurga buat Dalillah di sana .... kita jumpa lagi di sana nanti InsyaAllah . "....

That was it .. I stopped right there and my tears came running down from my eyes and there I was sobbing and sobbing in tears .... her face was so calm, peaceful and so clean as if she was sleeping .

We waited until the ' kafan' process finished and didn't wait for the burial since it was almost 4pm .

I've known Dalillah thru blogsphere and made contact with her once in a while but now it's all over ... she's no longer to be seen in blogs world and FB ... a very strong woman she was .. fighting her illness till the end ..

May she rest in peace and may Allah grant her with Paradise , InsyaAllah .


Al Fatihah .



This particular song lyric was written by Dalillah a few months ago .....



( to listen to this song , click the stop button on my blog's song at the sidefeed )