Tuesday, July 20, 2010

First and the last moment with Dalillah ...

Yesterday as I was driving to Hospital Kuala Lumpur to visit my friend Dalilah who was in critical condition due to her breast and liver cancer I kept on praying that I would have my golden opportunity to meet up with Dalilah since I had missed 3 chances before . I was in high spirit driving early in the morning all the way from Kemaman to KL and I had talked to my Darling asking permission to visit Dalilah and he knew how I had thought a lot about Dalilah and Darling last said " I tau kalau I tak bagi pun you mesti nak pegi jugak .. " So , four of us including Safiyyah , Sumayyah and my friend Falizah left Kemaman at 7.30am .and stopped to have our breakfast at Gambang R & R and at 9.59am I received a text message from "Dalilah " but at that time I was driving and it was almost at Karak toll that I read the message ..

" Bagi pihak keluarga Dalillah Tamrin saya ingin memaklumkan arwah baru sahaja meninggal harap dapat maklumkan kepada yang lain dan maafkan segala kesalahannya .. "

I was shivering while reading that sms and after paying the toll I said to myself " I have to stop for a while . "..... I stopped my car by the roadside and read the sms again and again and just couldn't believe what I was reading ... I was almost there to meet up with her but she's then no longer alive ... as I continued driving my tears rolled down my cheeks and I couldn't stop crying .... so many questions arose from my heart ... let me alone know what those questions were as it's between me and the Al Mighty Allah .. Oh Allah , please forgive me ., only YOU knew how I felt at that sad moment ...

We then together with Falizah's friend ( she's from KL ) headed towards Dalilah's Mom's house in Labohan Dagang , Banting .Aas we reached her mom's house I could feel the sadness all around .. Not long after that jenazah Dalilah arrived from the hospital . She was placed on the bed and I had my first and last chance to meet up with her and I kissed her cheeks and I whispered to her who was lying still , not a single move anymore ...

" Akak sayang Dalilah , semoga syurga buat Dalillah di sana .... kita jumpa lagi di sana nanti InsyaAllah . "....

That was it .. I stopped right there and my tears came running down from my eyes and there I was sobbing and sobbing in tears .... her face was so calm, peaceful and so clean as if she was sleeping .

We waited until the ' kafan' process finished and didn't wait for the burial since it was almost 4pm .

I've known Dalillah thru blogsphere and made contact with her once in a while but now it's all over ... she's no longer to be seen in blogs world and FB ... a very strong woman she was .. fighting her illness till the end ..

May she rest in peace and may Allah grant her with Paradise , InsyaAllah .


Al Fatihah .



This particular song lyric was written by Dalillah a few months ago .....



( to listen to this song , click the stop button on my blog's song at the sidefeed )

16 comments:

suealeen said...

This entry brings to tears to my eyes as well. :(. May she rest in peace.

Saya pun ada jotted down on her blog few times. And I pray that I can meet you as well, kak Rina.

silversarina said...

suealeen ,

I really really wanted to see her while her pulse still beating but Allah Knows Best .

Akak wanted to call you this morning but since akak only spent a few hours at KLCC , may be next visit we'll meet up , InsyaAllah .

Rozali said...

Assalamualaikum Sarina

moga Allah lapangkan kuburnya serta diteranggi dengan cahaya Syurga
amin

Wassalam

fa*atip said...

Alhamdulillah, we've done a bit of our part. Thanks for the good times spent together. **oitt..dtg la `rumah'!!

silversarina said...

Rozali ,

Waalaikumusalam . InsyaAllah .




fa ,

ada juadah special ka ???

fa*atip said...

Ada, halwa telinga - lagu Awaken from Maher Zain.... :P

Kak Sidah said...

salam Sarina,

Memang sedih bila kita kehilangan org yang kita sayang, tapi itulah ketentuan ilahi, diharap dapat bersabar dan meredhokan pemergian nya semoga roh allahyarham dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama solihin insyaallah aminn..al fatihah utk allahyarham...kita juga akan dipanggil bila tiba waktunya..

Pak Man laksam said...

Pak Man dapat bayang kan macam mana perasaan Sarina masa terima SMS tu......
Pak Man dapat berita ni setelah baca blog Pak Payne.

shami2 said...

Salam silverina..

mari kita sama2 berdoa..setiap hari mudah-mudahan kawan blogger kita bahagia disana...Al fatihah...

D said...

kak Rina,
Sis Dalilah was a very special person to everyone and I think if all the tears for her were collected, we'd probably get a swimming pool! Reading this post opened up the floodgates yet again.

May Jannah be hers, InsyaAllah...

maklang said...

AlFatihah..InsyaAllah syurga buat Dalilah..

Allah Maha Mengasihi...Moga ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang soleh dan solehah...

silversarina said...

fa ,

ingat ada laksa spesel :)



kak sidah ,

sebak bila ingatkan dah lama berkawan di alam cyber dengan arwah .... saat kita pasti akan tiba jua ...terimakasih kerana sudi bertandang ke rumah saya .

silversarina said...

pak man ,

saya tergamam dan berulang kali bertanya pada Allah ..kenapa ???




shami2 ,

InsyaAllah . Al Fatihah .

silversarina said...

D ,

Very true indeed , she's such a wonderful person to almost of us , bloggers ... InsyaAllah she's resting in peace . Ameen .





maklang ,

InsyaAllah . Al fatihah .

kakyong said...

sedihnya.. semoga kak raden aman di sana..

saya dengar dr rakan blog kak raden pass away.. jenguk ke blog kak rina hari ni baru tahu tarikh sebenarnya..

silversarina said...

kak yong ,

Al Fatihah . Semoga rohnya aman di sana InsyaAllah .